I was lost without purpose for a long time.
I felt so disconnected from life, I didn’t know what life was for, and I just wanted to know why. What was all this for? Everything felt so meaningless and pointless so I ended up doing nothing a lot of the time.
That’s how I spent or wasted a lot of my life. Now that I’m about to turn 30, and I have gone through sort of a spiritual awakening in my late 20s, I want to live a fulfilling life where I feel as connected as possible to the moment and make the best of each day, heading towards my goals and my dreams.
I guess my purpose now here on Earth is to make my dreams a reality. Whether big or small, we need to have a vision, a goal, or a dream that we want to manifest into reality that we can work towards every day in order to feel that our lives are worth it. That all those boring, mundane, or tough moments where we need to put in the hard work and effort to achieve our long-term goals won’t feel so bad and we have the strength to get through it because deep down we know why we have to do them. We have one life, and all this potential, and to waste it is a sort of sin which brings about a kind of hell, punishment, and consequences in the form of regret and mediocrity.
I still struggle with it although over the past couple of years I overcame a lot of negative thinking and behavior. At times I feel quite disconnected and I tend to cope with that void through overeating, sleeping, and media consumption instead of believing in my dreams, working towards my goals, and really utilizing my time and energy wisely. I think I need to really try and be mindful throughout the whole day, do breathwork and yoga, have visual reminders about me, use charms, prayers, positive affirmations, calling on my angels and any other tools, in order to get through these moments of temptations.
Yesterday, October 25th was the New Moon, and a partial solar eclipse in Scorpio. It’s supposed to be a time of transformation and renewal by letting our shadows come up to the surface and letting them go or accepting them.
We can also set new intentions for the things that we want to manifest into reality.
As for me, I’ve decided to set intentions for:
Improved Health, specifically my stomach and shoulder pain.
Financial Abundance, raising my monthly income by working on my translation job and starting a side project, such as blogging.
Learning a new skill, by registering myself for learning the MIDI course. I also want to learn blogging and digital marketing.
After one month, I hope to see that I am healthier, more abundant, and using my creative skills better than the month before. And overall happier.
It’s still not clear exactly which projects I want to focus on and prioritize, and how they would look exactly, but I guess I will figure it out as I go.
I do have a sort of vision where I build a website or social media presence around achieving my own goals and helping others do the same. I have a lot of dreams, and if I can achieve them then so can other people.
I believe the key is consistency and belief, and non-judgment of self and what I produce into the world. And to think about how my content can help others.
I have been suffering from indigestion for a long time, almost 4 years.
I think it’s due to many lifestyle factors. Such as sleeping after eating, overeating, eating late at night, eating spicy, oily, and heavy foods, and not exercising enough.
I want to achieve perfect health as soon as possible.
I think 4 years is quite enough time to be suffering from the same illness. It’s time for real change. Real self-discipline will be needed to control what I eat, when I eat.
I decided to stop all limiting beliefs about myself.
Any negative belief such as “I couldn’t possibly do that”, or “I’m not good enough” or “I’m too old”, all these thoughts and sayings that used to run in my head automatically, I decided to change them to positive ones.
Such as: “I can do anything that I set my mind to”.
“I believe in miracles.”
“Anything is possible.”
We often don’t know how much power we have in our own hands.
But we actually have so much that we can do right here, right now in order to change our lives.
First, what we must do is put ourselves in the right energy, or right state of mind in order to bring about this chain of reaction of positive change into our lives.
Then the world will seem to be full of opportunities rather than barriers, of things we can actually do right now to improve our situation or bring about a goal that we want to achieve.
For example, if you want to have more money, there are many opportunities to make money if you only have a laptop and internet connection such as copywriting, proofreading, etc. Or you could get a job in your local area at a store or restaurant. You could even invest your money in stock or a business venture if you have some money saved up. The point is, the possibilities are endless if you just search online, read a little, and do the work.
Let’s take for another example, you want to improve your relationship with a loved one, or an acquaintance, like a coworker. While this is never easy as it involves another person who you cannot control, you can control your responses and actions towards them. If you yourself are honest, understanding, and express your wishes to discuss the issue with them, then no matter how the other person responds, at least you will have tried everything and you can be at peace knowing that you tried your best. You can then either talk it out with the other person to try and amend things or simply move on, after acknowledging that they may not come around, at least not in the near future.
The point is you have to accept that things might take some time for you to achieve the desired goal that you want, and that it needs consistent effort, no matter what it is that you want to achieve. Whether you want good health, or more abundance, or better relationships, these things cannot be changed suddenly overnight. Rather they need to be worked at every day, consistently in order to reflect this positive action and reap their rewards overtime.
What really helps to develop this kind of patience and self-discipline needed to keep doing the good karma every day is daily meditation practice and staying present in the now as much as possible during the day. 20 minutes of meditation every morning at 6 am (or as soon as you wake up) will help you to become more calm, and more aware of your thoughts and actions during the day, as well as make it easier for you to focus on and complete a task that you may not want to initially. While it might be hard to begin at first, as with anything, with practice it gets easier. It may be recommended to begin with just 5 minutes every day until you get used to waking up and getting on your mat, and gradually increase the time to 10, 15, then 20 minutes.
Finally, you need to develop the strength of faith, either in yourself, a higher power, or even better, both, in order to keep you going so that whenever you fall down, and no matter how many times you seemingly fail, you will have strong belief to keep you going that you will eventually achieve what you want in the end and not just quit during the tough transition.
Overtime, with enough daily practice, the ritual will become a habit, and you will no longer be fighting yourself to do the right actions needed to live a happy and successful life. Of course, you might fall off the wagon here and then, or even many times during your life, but remember that you can always get back on and with experience it will generally be significantly easier than when you first started.
The journey to self-empowerment and manifesting or co-creating with the universe is the most important and rewarding journey that we may get to experience in our lifetimes. It is perhaps what the human journey is essentially about.